Sometimes, I get lonely. That's pretty normal I think. Right now, my roommates are home, but I don't want to talk to them. And yet, I'm craving human contact. So i browse facebook, hoping to see someone I know on chat. I write this blog post, both to figure out my thoughts and to quietly say, "Hey world...um...i exist. Just thought I'd remind you..." Somehow, this need for people makes me feel weak. I've been staring at my phone for half an hour, knowing all I have to do is text Jeff or Brenton and, odds are, I'll have myself a conversation. I could pick up the phone and call my Mom, or my grandma, or Jessie. But I don't because, for some reason, I feel ashamed that I need people. I should be able to sit by myself and do homework without having this unsettled feeling in my stomach, without wishing someone would call me just to say hi. I shouldn't NEED anyone except for myself! And yet...I do. Maybe that's the way I'm supposed t...
Oh, but you do excel at making beautiful music! The concert last night was absolutely stunning. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteThat's okay. Nobody likes homework machines. Unless they bought one... that does their homework so that they don't have to. Then people would like them. But not them, exactly. Only having them, for the sake of having them do their homework. Which is boring.
ReplyDeleteIn other words, that's okay. You don't have to be a homework machine.
yeah... I'm kinda tired. What else is new :)
Tasha-that made my day. You are great!
ReplyDeleteMike-I'm glad you still like me, even though I'm not a homework machine. Even when my inefficiency means that you probably get to spend tonight watching me write a paper.